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Year in Review 2014

Dec. 31st, 2014 | 11:31 am

Last years Resolutions were;
1. Do more self-directed work. One thing a month is certainly manageable.
Failed this one. Will reattempt this year.

2. Look at more Art, and culture in general. I still can't believe I missed gravity.
Did ok on this one. I still need to get out more, though.

3 Tweet once a day.
Hah, I got over 100 followers this year.

4. More phyiscal exercise (more than none)
Smashed this one. Bought a bike and cycled far and wide.

5. Cook a meal once a week. Eat less meat too.
Erm, kind of failed this one.

6. Debauch less, while maintaining relationships. (this one will be tricky)
I've been a bit of a hermit this year.

7. Meet more people.
I went on a lot of dates at one point. They didn't really go anywhere though.

8. Read more books. Even trashy books are better than bloody buzzfeed lists.
Read more this year. Mostly trash, but, mission accomplished

9. Listen to a new album once a month. Not necessarily new, but new to me.
Did this for a bit. Realised I liked the one I listened to in January and listened to that a hella lot.

10. Focus.
Hmmph.

1. What did you do in 2014 that you'd never done before?
Travelled alone. I went to New York. It was fantastic!

2. Did you keep your New Year's resolutions, and will you make more for next year?
See above.

3. Did anyone close to you give birth?
No.

4. What countries did you visit?
'merica.

5. What would you like to have in 2015 that you lacked in 2014?
More money, some sort of relationship.

6. What date from 2014 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?
'merica holiday was good.

7. What was your biggest achievement of the year?
Ummmmmm.

8. What was your biggest failure?
Failed Grade 3 violin like a bum.

9. Did you suffer illness or injury?
No.

10. What were the best things you bought?
New bike!!!

11. Whose behaviour merited celebration?
Paul paul paul.

12. Whose behaviour appalled you?
No ones really.

13 Where did most of your money go?
Rent, marks and spencer salads. I seriously need to start taking lunch into work, again.

14. What did you get really, really, really excited about?
'merica trip

15. What song will always remind you of 2014?
St Vincent album was a corker, it was really good to feel excited about music again.

16. Compared to this time last year, are you:
i. happier or sadder?
probably very slightly sadder, but not much

ii. thinner or fatter?
Thinner.

iii. richer or poorer?
Very slightly richer.

17. What do you wish you'd done more of?
Self directed work, Violin, cycling, again.

18. What do you wish you'd done less of?
Worrying

19. How will you be spending Christmas?
I spent it with my parents.

20. Did you fall in love in 2014
No.

21. What was your favourite TV program?
Game of Thrones

22. Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year?
Nope

23. What was the best book you read?
Great Expections was good.

24. What was your greatest musical discovery?
St. Vincent

25. What did you want and get?
Bike and violin

26. What did you want and not get?
A fulfilling relationship

27. What was your favourite film of this year?
12 Years a slave tied with The Lego Movie

28. What did you do on your birthday?
Drank way too much.

29. What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?
Less time alone

30. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2011?
An increasingly tatty pair of trainers

31. What kept you sane?
Drinking

32. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?
Victoria Coren. Again and again.

33. What political issue stirred you the most?
The same as last year, sadly.

34. Who did you miss?
Many people.

35. Who was the best new person you met?
I dunno, Dom?

36. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2014.
It's up to you to take responsibility for how you feel.

37. Quote a song lyric that sums up your year:
Like a birth, in reverse.

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Opposite new years resolutions.

Jan. 3rd, 2014 | 01:15 pm

I was sort of planning to do this originally, but I couldn't quite be bothered thinking about it in these terms on New Years Day. Anyway, I watched some animation about new years resolutions, and I'm not sure why I'm wibbling on about this I'm just going to get on with it. Basically, if I thought about change in a negative way, rather than a positive way (Do you want to stay fat? Rather than, don't you want to be thin?) whould this be a better motivator for change? I think stick might be a better motivator than carrot in this respect. So yeah, without further ado, here they are, my new years revolutions, in negative terms;

In 2014 I am not going to:
1. Laze about, doing only what is necessary to keep your job, and not pushing yourself to improve and learn new skills.
2. Stay in lounging about on the internet and watching rubbish on TV
3. Consume internet drivel constantly and incessantly.
4. Stay completely weak and flabby.
5. Eat ready meals and bags of crisps for tea.
6. Keep getting pissed as the only way of enjoying yourself
7. Solely hang around with the old school gang and never get out of your comfort zone.
8. Watch loads more pornography
9. Play too much of the Xbox, as this is not the only way of unwinding.
10. Faff about wasting time like I have done today with this drivel.
*bonus* 11. Let my violin gather dust.

There that should do it, although I'm not sure what that is.

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Another Brand New Year

Jan. 2nd, 2014 | 12:03 am
mood: tiredtired

New Year's resolutions this year are to;
1. Do more self-directed work. One thing a month is certainly manageable.
2. Look at more Art, and culture in general. I still can't believe I missed gravity.
3 Tweet once a day.
4. More phyiscal exercise (more than none)
5. Cook a meal once a week. Eat less meat too.
6. Debauch less, while maintaining relationships. (this one will be tricky)
7. Meet more people.
8. Read more books. Even trashy books are better than bloody buzzfeed lists.
9. Listen to a new album once a month. Not necessarily new, but new to me.
10. Focus.


1. What did you do in 2012 that you'd never done before?
One night stand. It was alright.

2. Did you keep your New Year's resolutions, and will you make more for next year?
Sort of. I lost a stone through general under eating but it seems to be from everywhere but my belly. The doctor has told me I need to put it back on though, so I’ll need a better plan if I’m to shift this unsightly fat. I definitely got better at the CGI stuff by becoming a professional. That was pretty cool. *smugface*

3. Did anyone close to you give birth?
My friend Daniel had a son. He’s very cute.

4. What countries did you visit?
Spain.

5. What would you like to have in 2014 that you lacked in 2013?
More free time, some sort of relationship. I’m pretty unlucky when it comes to the ladies.

6. What date from 2011 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?
Starting at StartJG was pretty momentous. No weddings or owt like that though this year.

7. What was your biggest achievement of the year?
New Job.

8. What was your biggest failure?
Keeping up with friends, the move in with Dawn was a pretty spectacular failure.

9. Did you suffer illness or injury?
No.

10. What were the best things you bought?
New beast computer is amazing.

11. Whose behaviour merited celebration?
David Meller, for making the decision to be happy.

12. Whose behaviour appalled you?
No ones really.

13 Where did most of your money go?
Rent, marks and spencer salads. I seriously need to start taking lunch into work.

14. What did you get really, really, really excited about?
New job (again)! Primevera was good too.

15. What song will always remind you of 2013?
Probably that stupid wrecking ball song

16. Compared to this time last year, are you:
i. happier or sadder?
Much happier, for certain.

ii. thinner or fatter?
Thinner.

iii. richer or poorer?
About the same as I was last year. Despite earning more money.

17. What do you wish you'd done more of?
Self directed work, Violin, cycling.

18. What do you wish you'd done less of?
faffing about online reading shit, drinking.

19. How will you be spending Christmas?
I spent it with my parents.

20. Did you fall in love in 2013
No.

21. What was your favourite TV program?
Breaking Bad was good

22. Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year?
No, not hate.

23. What was the best book you read?
Nothing really stands out, slowly plodding through Great expectations.

24. What was your greatest musical discovery?
Music

25. What did you want and get?
More material possessions.

26. What did you want and not get?
Spiritual awakening

27. What was your favourite film of this year?
Erm, Probably The Selfish Giant, that was great.

28. What did you do on your birthday?
I went out for a birthday meal at sandbar. I accidently invited too many people and it just led to me becoming totally stressed out. This year I’m just gonna get drunk.

29. What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?
More free time in which to do stuff, not just zoned out on the sofa.

30. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2011?
Cardigan crew REP-RE-SENT

31. What kept you sane?
Xbox

32. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?
Victoria Coren. Again.

33. What political issue stirred you the most?
The government are a gang of self-serving, greedy, complete arseholes.

34. Who did you miss?
Absent friends.

35. Who was the best new person you met?
Some of the new guys at work are pretty cool.

36. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2012.
The power of positive thinking. Also, taking chances can often pay dividends, I’ve found if you sort of choose where you’re willing to fail, then taking risks in other areas becomes much easier.

37. Quote a song lyric that sums up your year:
Ding dong the witch is dead.

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Out with the old, in with the new (anxiety)

Mar. 14th, 2013 | 09:46 pm
mood: happyhappy

I guess I should elaborate on that last entry, eh?

I got a new job! A job I actually like! that challenges me! That has prospects! For a big company with a global presence!

I've been a junior visualised for just under a month now. I spent all last year leanring to visualise and hey presto, now I'm a visualiser!

Also, I now live in a little house with my old uni friend Dawn. but I'm not sure if I've mentioned that before. But it means I also no longer live with my parents.

Happily ever after… Wrong!!!

Getting this new job has meant I've swapped my previous insecurities for a whole bunch of grubby new ones. The job is great the offices are lovely and everyone there is super cool and, erm, reasonably nice. I just can't help shake off the feeling I shouldn't be there… I'm not up to speed either really, The job is a little beyond me. I mean, I love it and all, but I'm just not good enough. I make a lot of mistakes and work too slowly. I still have to think a lot and put real about everything I do. It's tiring me out.

I was chatting with the other grads there (not that I'm a grad, I'm a junior, although what that has to do with anything I don't know…) and I was told they're quite ruthless and quick to drop the chaff. Which is worrying. I have a three month probationary period in which I can be sacked within the week. Part of me reckons they'll give me another two months before deciding… as this is when the probationary period is up.

I know even if they do drop me, I'll still have spent three months doing 3ds max everyday, and I've learnt Vray and other workflow type stuff as well. It's just, once you've seen the promised land, everything else is going to be, kind of shite…

I know I sound like a right whiny little bitch, it's just, I've not had something like this before, and I'm terrified of losing it. I'm working hard and doing everything I'm asked and staying late and trying to be a good guy at work… it's just hard. Maybe I need to learn to be happy with myself and not require constant reassurance.

I guess all I can do is my best.  God I sound like such a dick. I wish I was more confident. But then doesn't everyone?

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February

Feb. 7th, 2013 | 11:39 pm

Christ, everything has a habit of happening all at once, doesn't it?

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'cos the end is coming soon, yeah the end is coming soon.

Jan. 1st, 2013 | 11:46 pm

1. What did you do in 2012 that you'd never done before?
Went to Berlin. Was top.

2. Did you keep your New Year's resolutions, and will you make more for next year?
Ummm,
No. I got bored of running very quickly. This Year I plan to lose my belly and get better at the violin and CGI stuff.

3. Did anyone close to you give birth?
Yeah, actually. My Facebook feed is full of babies and weddings.

4. What countries did you visit?
Germany.

5. What would you like to have in 2012 that you lacked in 2011?
More money, more interesting work, and a girlfriend/ meaningful emotional experiences.  Things are moving but sooo slowly.

6. What date from 2011 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?
Nothing really. *shrug*

7. What was your biggest achievement of the year?
Either finishing the CG course or grade 1 violin. Kinda meagre but, you know.

8. What was your biggest failure?
Work has been pretty shit.

9. Did you suffer illness or injury?
No.

10. What were the best things you bought?
Ummm, dunno.

11. Whose behaviour merited celebration?
God knows.

12. Whose behaviour appalled you?
I don't know.

13 Where did most of your money go?
Futureworks took a massive slice. Mattress and furniture.. Apart from that nothing really.

14. What did you get really, really, really excited about?
Moving house. It's been good so far.

15. What song will always remind you of 2011?
Nothing really. Those bloody pieces I had to learn for grade 1.

16. Compared to this time last year, are you:
i. happier or sadder?
Incrementally Happier

ii. thinner or fatter?
Fatter for sure.

iii. richer or poorer?
Slightly Richer.

17. What do you wish you'd done more of?
CG work after futureworks. Just more art work in general. More violin. Stuff that makes me better.

18. What do you wish you'd done less of?
I don't know, xbox probably, but I enjoy that so...

19. How will you be spending Christmas?
I spent it with my parents.

20. Did you fall in love in 2012
No. I think I'm still in love with someone from a long time ago, but, I don't think they are the same person any more.

21. What was your favourite TV program?
Game of Thrones.

22. Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year?
Yeah, actually. But they started it.

23. What was the best book you read?
Ha, Storm of swords.

24. What was your greatest musical discovery?
Massive shrug.

25. What did you want and get?
Somewhere to live that isn't my parent's house.

26. What did you want and not get?
A car. Heh.

27. What was your favourite film of this year?
The Master was pretty good.

28. What did you do on your birthday?
Went out drinking at Sandbar. Loads of people came and I had a really great night :)

29. What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?
Interesting and challenging work.

30. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2011?
Mark from peep show.

31. What kept you sane?
Pornography and my kindle. 

32. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?
Victoria Coren.

33. What political issue stirred you the most?
The ongoing tory government. Although I haven't done anything about it.

34. Who did you miss?
Little Si, The university gang. I need to go to Sheffield more often.

35. Who was the best new person you met?
I'd say I'm friends with Joe a bit better than he was. I don't really meet new people these days :(

36. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2012.
Show don't tell.

37. Quote a song lyric that sums up your year:
Put the days together and they start to do some damage.

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July there all day?

Jul. 21st, 2012 | 06:46 pm

July there all day? D'you lie there all day?

I do when I have a hangover. Went to see Swandown with Ant last night. It turned into a bit of a man date actually, with all the drinking afterwards. Which I don't mind really as it's not like I'm going to be meeting any girls while I live with my parents.

Work is slowly destroying me at the moment. Someone even got "demoted" to my job, so I'm pretty much just doing Admin at the minute. It's scaring the hell out of me that I'm in nearly exactly the same position I was in 10 years ago. Except I've not even got the escape of University to look forward to. It's a vicious circle where I don't meet anyone because I live with my parents and then I can't move out of my parents because I don't meet anyone. And all the friends I might have houseshared with are busy growing up with wives and lives. 

We'll see what happens eh?

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April and showers.

Apr. 29th, 2012 | 11:16 pm

Hello, all.

Christ, It's April already. I'm back living with my parents again now, doesn't look like I'll be moving anytime either as I can't afford the rent on a  place. Oh well.

Still working at RTA. It's starting to bite a little bit now. Even the interesting work has become a little boring, and no one else is doing Admin yet. Here's hoping this futureworks course leads somewhere, eh?

Speaking of everything else I'm doing at the moment, it's all driving me a bit insane. Something else I really miss about working at college is the holidays. You can catch up on life and have a bit of time to oneself. Yeah, not anymore. All this everything else isn't helping either.

There was an interesting David Mitchell opinion piece in the Guardian today. It was about aspiration, about wanting to change for the better. About how even admitting you aren't happy with yourself is a sign of failure. I suppose another issue would be that; what happens after you've changed? After you've got the new job and the new body and the new life. What then?

Urgh, that's enough of this.

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Ch-ch-changes.

Dec. 30th, 2011 | 09:10 pm
location: United Kingdom, Stockport

Another year later... Facebook timeline has kind of made this a bit redundant but, you know.

1. What did you do in 2011 that you'd never done before?
Went to Scotland. Was top.

2. Did you keep your New Year's resolutions, and will you make more for next year?
Ummm, yeah, I did some stuff, not others. My resolution for this year is run 5k in 20 minutes. After that we'll take it from there. Maybe do an OU course. But this crops up every time I feel a little unfulfilled. I shouldn't feel unfulfilled, I'm rushed off my feet at the minute.

3. Did anyone close to you give birth?
Well not close.

4. What countries did you visit?
Does Scotland count?

5. What would you like to have in 2012 that you lacked in 2011?
More money, more interesting work, a car, a place of my own to live, a holiday abroad. Not much really 

6. What date from 2011 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?
First catch launch was good, very bitter sweet night, but god knows the date. Death of Grandad, too, for obvious reasons.  

7. What was your biggest achievement of the year?
Ummm, I'll get back to you on that.

8. What was your biggest failure?
Ummm, Is failing to achieve failure? Nothing specific. In fact,  managing to negotiate longer hours, lower pay and fewer responsibilities was certainly something.

9. Did you suffer illness or injury?
No.

10. What were the best things you bought?
New MacBookPRO

11. Whose behaviour merited celebration?
God knows.

12. Whose behaviour appalled you?
I don't know.

13 Where did most of your money go?
Rent, and other assorted shit. Futureworks have taken a big chunk, violin lessons, all sort of stuff.

14. What did you get really, really, really excited about?
New Job, getting the first issue of catch out, going to Scotland, starting Futureworks course.

15. What song will always remind you of 2011?
None really. I've much stopped listening to music. God knows why.

16. Compared to this time last year, are you:
i. happier or sadder?
Sadder probably.

ii. thinner or fatter?
Slightly fatter

iii. richer or poorer?
Probably Slightly richer.

17. What do you wish you'd done more of?
Playing Battlefield 3 ;)

18. What do you wish you'd done less of?
Worrying

19. How will you be spending Christmas?
With my parents.

20. Did you fall in love in 2009
No.

21. What was your favourite TV program?
Black mirror and All Watched Over by Machines of Loving Grace.

22. Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year?
No.

23. What was the best book you read?
Oh gosh, I've read quite a bit this year. Dunno what the best was though. Catcher in the Rye? Possibly.

24. What was your greatest musical discovery?
Ummmm, nothing.

25. What did you want and get?
I wanted a full time job and I got one.

26. What did you want and not get?
More control over my life.

27. What was your favourite film of this year?
Tinker Tailor Soldier Spy was ok.

28. What did you do on your birthday?
I went out for a meal with my friends. Was good.

29. What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?
More money.

30. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2011?
Marks and Spencer 2 for 27 shirt and tie combination pack.

31. What kept you sane?
Xbox and pornography. I'm like an overgrown teenager. I often wonder if previous generations felt like this.

32. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?
Posters of Zooey Deshanel on the side of buses.

33. What political issue stirred you the most?
Cuts. I went and marched I did.

34. Who did you miss?
The guys at college. The old university gang. Other... people.

35. Who was the best new person you met?
The guys at RTA are ok

36. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2011.
Drinking is well great.

37. Quote a song lyric that sums up your year:
We don’t make time where there is none, move your feet!
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Twentyten

Jan. 2nd, 2010 | 02:59 pm
location: Home
mood: curiouscurious
music: The Rocket Builder (Io Pan!) - Johann Johannsson

End of year quiz thingy, again. Let's hope Y2kX can and will fulfil all our wildest dreams!

1. What did you do in 2009 that you'd never done before?
Not much I don’t think. I passed my driving test. Everything else was just more of the same.

2. Did you keep your New Year's resolutions, and will you make more for next year?
Yeah I did, kind of. I learned to drive, Started listening to electro and contemporary classical, and got a better job. When you put it like that it’s been an ok year.

3. Did anyone close to you give birth?
Nope

4. What countries did you visit?
None, I stayed in England the whole year.

5. What would you like to have in 2010 that you lacked in 2009?
More money.

6. What date from 2009 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?
Nothing stands out really.

7. What was your biggest achievement of the year?
New job and escaping from call centre hell.

8. What was your biggest failure?
The fact my new job has resulted in a mass of new neurosis, and not contentment. And that I earn such a pitiful amount.

9. Did you suffer illness or injury?
No.

10. What were the best things you bought?
Again, nothing. I live like a nihilistic monk

11. Whose behaviour merited celebration?
I don’t know. It’s been a busy year. The scientists who got the LHC working again are alright in my book.
12. Whose behaviour appalled you?
Otis Ferry. Ha.

13 Where did most of your money go?
God knows. Behind various bar in and around Manchester I think. I bought a new camera which I haven’t really had a chance to play with properly yet.

14. What did you get really, really, really excited about?
The new job. I’m supposed to be moving out as well, but we’ll see.

15. What song will always remind you of 2009?
Boys Noize cover of my moon my man.

16. Compared to this time last year, are you:
i. happier or sadder?
I don’t know, probably about the same.

ii. thinner or fatter?
About the same.

iii. richer or poorer?
Poorer ;_;

17. What do you wish you'd done more of?
Seeing my uni friends as they’ve all buggered off to opposite ends of the country.

18. What do you wish you'd done less of?
Worrying

19. How will you be spending Christmas?
With my parents.

20. Did you fall in love in 2009
This is open to debate.

21. What was your favourite TV program?
I was hooked by School of Saatchi. I like the usual Charlie Brooker stuff too.

22. Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year?
Nope.

23. What was the best book you read?
I honestly can’t remember. I’d like to read more this year.

24. What was your greatest musical discovery?
Boys Noize

25. What did you want and get?
To learn to drive. A driving license

26. What did you want and not get?
More money

27. What was your favourite film of this year?
Moon, or Synecdoche, New York. Both were pretty awesome. I still listen to the Moon Soundtrack.

28. What did you do on your birthday?
I arranged all my friends to come to Manchester and we had a right good knees up. This year I can barely be arsed doing anything.

29. What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?
I don’t want to sound like a broken record but, more money.

30. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2009?
Brown Cords.

31. What kept you sane?
Ha.

32. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?
Katy Perry is pretty hot. I don’t know if this is a good thing or not.

33. What political issue stirred you the most?
The banking crisis. The fact that so many people are paid ridiculous sums for what amounts to gambling is sickening.

34. Who did you miss?
My friends.

35. Who was the best new person you met?
Simon, the photography teacher at work

36. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2009.
Something to do with Call of Duty modern warfare 2.

37. Quote a song lyric that sums up your year:
The sun’s gone dim and the sky’s turned black.

Happy New Year!!!

Resolutions;
Move out, Find a better paying job, and start exercising. To the max.

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